Meaningless life without worldly things?

Sometimes I just wonder why me?why its me?

Why God choose me to face all the challenges and trials..I am so tired and yet so dry at this period of time.Transport remain my concern and I knew Satan is trying to overcome me by keep on instigating me through this issue to keep test my faith.

Yet God is ever wonderful in providing..;) However, I feel world is with human where there are still greed and materialistic..Maybe without transport, I didnt feel that way....or I am not prone to that type of thoughts..

Everyday everynite..I cry out to you Lord...to bless me and provide me..SHOW ME your WAY!!

Show me your PATH and PURPOSES in my life....if I am meant to be here, why not??If not, just go ahead and speeak to me and grant me the peace of my heart.Sometimes, I do hate myself...every day I face tesnion from company and colleauges...at work.Then weekend comes suppose to be happy...but yet still face tension from transport....is this my life/

I know sometimes I should not coomplain too much...but for me now its unbearable..i dont know why suddenly I feel I am so weak...I try to convince myself why other ppl thru me are doing better and yet me Im stuck in this level and could not grow!!whats wrong with me??

God, please grant me the wisdom and also your word to minister my heart..I really need you....its not because I wanted sometghin earthly but I want to seek your way in everything in my life...Pls!!!


Amen!Nites...